Devastation

Devastate: : to reduce to chaos, disorder, or helplessness.
This would be the perfect definition of the results of the day.


As I thought it would, last weeks family planning meeting set off a chain of events that brought our whole process to a complete stop and then reverse. 
The comments that were made during that meeting in hopes of supporting kinship care being transferred to me backfired in a major way. During the meeting Grandma said that she could not take care of the 2 girls together, that is why she wants me to take care of Tiny. 
That is what started the path to Tiny being transferred to a kinship home back in the county she came from. 
We got news yesterday that DSS was coming today to get her to move her back there. 
That is when we started on a legal wild goose chase. Ultimately we ended up in a lawyers office and Grandma had an approval from a judge on an emergency temporary custody. 30 minutes later we get a call that the judge spoke to DSS and that he tore up the signed custody order. 
Tiny is now on her way back to the county she came from and Cris & I are left with nothing, but a house full of reminders that she was here. 


I am telling myself that there is a reason this happened. Maybe Tiny was here just to get healthy. I am not sure why, but there is a reason it did not work out. I come back to a sermon that Pastor Bruce gave, and I know I have mentioned it before. Sometimes you just don't get what you want. 
I still trust that God has a plan for us and adoption is how we are going to build our family. 
We might be knocked down, but we are not knocked out.