Thursday, March 08, 2012

Hope and a Future

So, I have been pretty down for the last week or so. The process of reviewing children bios and submitting ours to committees only to be rejected has been weighing on me very heavily. I was talking to my friend Kim today about how isolating it is. At this point we have been doing this for over 14 months. The novelty has worn off and I think people are tired of hearing about it. I don't blame anyone...if I am to be honest with myself, why would anyone want to hear about kids that are not ever going to be be a part of my life. 

I received a bio on 3 girls the other day. Ages 9,6 and 3. They are cute, sweet and very happy children. I asked my social worker to submit our home study to be considered for these kiddos. Normally there is not any information on the home study for the social worker, but this bio had her phone number. So, I was able to call this am to see if she received my bio and shocker (insert sarcasm here) she never received it from my social worker.

We talked for about 20 minutes about us and the girls. The social worker said she was very excited about us and asked for our home study and photo profile scrapbook. She said she would review and get back to us. 
I am praying that these girls are the reason things did not work out with baby Leah.  :) 


  1. Oh Jen, your story breaks my heart. There is no discrepancy in how bad you want and deserve this! There is a divine plan at work, even though our human logic may not grasp it quite yet, God is at work. Everything that has unfolded so far for you, Cris, Lea, and other potential's all a part of His plan and everything is going to fall in place for all involved. God bless you and your ginormous heart, faith, hope, and optimism.

  2. I'm not at all tired of hearing about your journey! Though, I do get really frustrated (not at you!) reading about all the BS you have to endure. Hopefully, things with these 3 girls will work out. I'll continue to keep my fingers crossed and send good energy your way!